My father has been gone for 20 years this November, and a sister passed about 6 years ago. In January it will be 2 years since my wife has passed. My mother is still here, 87 years old, and I know she won't be around forever, as none of us will. Losing my wife, has been very hard. We spent 2/3 of our lives together.
Still, the LORD has plans for all of us, and only gives any of us a limited number of days here. I'm trying to make the most of it, and keep going, because life is a gift. It's also a test, of our worthiness for the next life, or punishment.
Life is about the choices we make, and how we learn from them. I learned a lot from my father, my mother and am a far better person now, because of my wife.
I keep going to try and honor all of them, and to hopefully to teach my kids the same. They're all generally do well, but have choices still to make, and I'm hopefully they make good choices. I have that same hope for two grandsons too.
Beyond that, all I have now is what's left of my family and what I can do with what's left of my time here and the rest I leave in the LORD's hands.
My joy in life now is my family, a garden each year and the blessings the LORD provides, and my hobbies of fly tying, and lure making and some fishing.
It does no good to dwell on the past, or past mistakes, but we can learn from that experience and move on. I know that's what those I've lost here would have wanted, and I'm hoping I'll see them all again. Only the LORD knows for sure if I will.
